I'm supposed to start the Common Application today. I'm petrified - I don't know how or where to begin. I should talk to my councelor on monday, but I feel the greatest hesitancy to do so, the greatest reluctance. I'm really thinking on restarting writing on my book. I've looked at it so closely today, I'm considering printing it out, possibly rereading what I've already written so I can continue to write. It may be the only thing to get me back on track, at the moment. It might focus my frenzied, restless energy, calm my stressed and wound-up nerves. Or maybe not, who knows.
It's snowing like crazy today. I'd say like a blizzard, but it's not that much, nor that bad. But there are several inches on the ground yet, and the snow hasn't abated. My heart clenches when I think on all the animals left outside. It cannot be anywhere near to . . . anything I can imagine. But still, I'm reminded of a book I read "The Children's Blizzard" by David Laskin. It was about a blizzard that swept through this area and the Dakotas in 1888 and killed so many for how quickly it came on. All I can remember from that book was how at the very end, when the blizzard was over the next morning, a young man (who had been huddling in a hay stack for the duration of the storm with his little sister) decided to get out and get help for her. He got ten steps away before he had a heart attack and died from the sudden rush of cold blood to his heart after staying in one position all night. That's all I can see, and it hurts to witness in my mind.
That's the only thing I do not like about continual snow and freezing temperatures. They remind of what they shouldn't.
Anyway. I really must concentrate on other things. I really really must. I can't. I'll try.
"Gravity" The Fold
"From Where You Are" Lifehouse
"We Looked Like Giants" Death Cab For Cutie
"Everywhere You Go" Taxiride
"Stop and Stare" OneRepublic
No comments:
Post a Comment