Ambien . . . ramblings.

So this is typed up from last night, I wrote it on paper:

Took my dose of ambien at about 815 and it is now close to 1030. I'm still awake. In fact, I feel alert, not drowsy like I've been all day. What the fuck? A sleep medicine that is supposed to 'knock you out' that makes me feel awake. This is ridiculous. I followed the life counselor's (what a name) suggestions. No electronics after 7pm, I read a book instead. And I'm writing my thoughts to get them out. Still awake.

I was excited for this KO effect, doubly excited. And yet I'm awake, alert, unable to contemplate sleep much less do it. And Brock is fast asleep, snoring happily. I'm jealous. Very jealous. I just want to be normal. Sleep like a healthy normal person. Not worry about depression or side effects or drug reactions to alcohol.

It's a frustrating shame. It gives me a headache. The list of 'to-dos' I came up with while trying to sleep is quite long. And I'm still thinking. I'm gonna go give it another shot.

I can yawn - does that mean I can sleep? Probably not. But I can't sit up all night. I have a large list of things to do tomorrow. Joy. Sweet sleeping - fingers crossed.


Turns out, I wasn't able to sleep. I got up at 5 am, after deciding I was tired of to trying to snooze. I almost think the ambien missed my mouth when I took it lol. Anyway, gonna try it again tonight and see if last night was a fluke. My sister is going to be here in an hour (hopefully) and she'll be visiting for a while, finally.

So yeah, that's all for now. I'm bored. Good-bye.

Song: We Looked Like Giants by Death Cab for Cutie
and also, I was Made for Sunny Days by the Weepies.

Have a fabulous day! Ta!