I got it.

So I finally figured out a way to describe the way I feel right now.

I feel like a cat trapped in a bag - struggling to get out. Except the bag is my skin. Pretty picture eh?

I'm even going so far as to try to make friends by answering craigslist ads for friends. I've posted my own ads before, but this time I thought I be on the receiving end instead.

So that's all I had to say.

Song for the second:

Motions by Matthew West
"This might hurt, it's not safe
But I know that I've gotta make a change
I don't care if I break
At least I'll be feeling something

‘Cause just okay is not enough
Help me fight through the nothingness of life

I don't wanna go through the motions
I don't wanna go one more day.....

I don't want to spend my whole life asking
What if I had given everything
Instead of going through the motions"