Acoustic.

I tried to relax. But I could feel a frown on my face, my neck was tense, and my eyes were sore. It seems relaxing doesn't work anymore. I gave up eventually, turned off my music, and rolled over, trying to get comfortable. It took me over an hour, maybe over two, to fall asleep, though I was so tired. That doesn't seem to be a factor anymore, either.

"I always wondered why I never saw you with any guys, why you never had a boyfriend."

I just remembered this. I was talking to S. about a month or so ago, and this is all I remember of our conversation. I told him how I'd dated J. (who was already out of high school) and he assumed I'd dated other guys as well. He wondered why he never saw me with any guys? What on earth could he have meant? That I was abnormal, for not having dated during my first years of high school, or ever really. It isn't as though I wasn't the only girl who hadn't. Almost all of my friends didn't date either. *sighs in frustration* Besides, who would I have dated anyway. Him? I've known S. since I first moved here, when we were best friends, when he asked me out in fourth grade. I moved away for a few years, and then came back in seventh grade and he pretended to have forgotten me. I don't know, maybe he does like me, though he sure shows it in odd ways. It could explain why his ex-girlfriend wouldn't talk to me at all while they were dating, but why she seems to be so nice to me now. *rolls eyes* It scared the hell out of me when she said my name (and said hello) for the very first time a couple months ago. I wouldn't have been surprised if the world was coming to an end. *smiles deprecatingly* I'm going to have to ask him what he meant, before this question drives me up the wall.

A song came up randomly in my playlist last night as I was attempting sleep. The actual song has no real relevance, but the type does - it was in acoustic. And I remembered sitting in the passenger seat of J.'s truck, listening to one of his multitude of CDs, and hearing him tell me which songs were his favorites. He tried to introduce me to so many different artists, and I discovered I liked more than I thought. It's probably because of him that I have such an open view on music. I remember he liked to listen to the acoustic versions of songs, said you could get a better sense of an artist's voice that way, said it felt closer that way. Even now, tears still come to my eyes. I can't believe I forgot about that.

It's amazing the things you remember at odd moments.