Anchor.

"I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever.
I'll be there for you through it all,
Even if saving you sends me to Heaven."
-Your Guardian Angel (Red Jumpsuit Apparatus)

I think I might understand this. It's been a while since I've talked of him, M. I mean. You might remember him, and if you don't, oh well. Well, maybe I don't like him like that, but still, I guess I care. He's a friend, however annoying sometimes. I've known him for four and half years, after all. And today he comes out with this note. This note that says he wants to end his life, and he's asking for a reason not to. Fuck. Now? Of all times, now?!

This sort of thing, this subject, is rather touchy right now. I commented on the note, and I sent him an email. I hope I helped. God knows it's something I never had in the moment.

And sometimes, like now, I really wish I could have a hug. I think I want one. Someone warm, something to anchor myself to at this moment. That steadiness that I don't have all the time, that's what I want right now.

I have a week off, and an interview for a scholarship tomorrow. Otherwise, I'm sort of free to read and think, most of all think. This may not be good, but it's necessary. I have homework that I need to do, as well. I shouldn't forget that. *sighs*

Anyway. Good night y'all. And if you can do anything for me, after you read this, find someone and give them a hug. The difference it makes, is more than you think, is more than you know. One hug. Just one. That's all I have to say. Sleep well. I'm done.